05:08 July 10

I'm honestly always so tired even though I don't do anything, and when it's time to sleep, I can't. All I can think about is how I wasted a whole day of my summer even though I'd been looking forward to it all year. I slept until like 2 and played Rdr2 for a few hours, then my friend, A, called me to play Fortnite, which was a lot of fun even if we only won 1/20 games. My ex/friend has been ignoring me for a few days, and he gets mad at me because I get kind of annoyed when he does that. He always comes back in a week acting like nothing ever happened even though he posted like four videos on TikTok about how much he hates me. I haven't binge ate in four days, but I did today, and it really sucked. I was proud of myself for losing two pounds in a few days but I "gained it back" overnight. Rationally, it was just water weight, but I felt like I lost all my progress, and now I really have. I'm trying to have a healthier relationship with food, but I feel so alone that it's hard. I made this account because a few of my friends have one, even though I didn't add them on here. I really want to make some new friends, even if I don't seem talkative at first.