giving up

idk what to do anymore he keeps unadding me on snap and he's posting on his other tt account about "her" and i'm like 90% sure that "her" is not me. ik im not gonna be able to let him go. not for another 3 months or so. ive tried to find things to distract myself like volleyball or baking or painting but ive lost all motivation to do anything. i promised myself i would wait for him until school starts again but if he doesnt prove that he really really wants me back form the timespan of now to august 15th, then im fully giving up on the thought of us having the possibility of being tg again. i love him so much its getting in the way of everything that i care about and the fact that he's choosing not to care just pisses me off to the point where im lashing out at the people that care about me. if he doesnt wanna be involved in my life then so be it. but i'll still love him. i'll keep defending his name by all means necessary. i wont block him because i dont like blocking people no matter what bc if they need my help i will help them. im disgustingly loyal.