healing with time

so its been some time now that Richard and I had to say goodbye. I really miss him, he meant the world to me but ive slowly started to move on kinda. so I went to hand out with some friends and there was this total pick me boy there and he started hitting on me and I kept telling him I'm not ready for anything but he cant take no for an answer, and all I could start thinking was if Richard was still here this wouldn't be happening. I started to get very overwhelmed and I ended up fainting and tbh yeah I haven't been taking care of myself lately, but still, the dude splashed some water on me and I woke up and then he was saying how now I owe him something and then he touch my butt I was so uncomfortable, and he started saying I should go live live with him for two weeks and ill fall in love with him and all that crazy bullshit. all that kept freaking me out more , I evenly told him I will never be with him ever! 

that was such a terrible experience, I cried so much that night just missing my life with rich but there is noting I can do but keep going, it sucks though. I cant see myself with anyone else and especially marriage, so what I'm going to do is get a good career and just work forever and make money and be on my own because after all of that I really just would rather be alone. 

I miss rich.