manic?

I have been up for 31 hours at this point and have been cleaning for around 8 hours which included the kitchen, living room and the kitchen table. I honestly would've got on my room as well but everybodys' rooms are like super fucking close. I have been tweaking pretty much, I've only been on weed and nic so I know it isn't anything I took. I've been taking my meds, but they did add a new one so that might be it I have no clue. But my dad's been in jail for possesion of drugs I guess, my aunt (his sister) said that him and my grandpa got into a huge fight and he was like super high on drugs or something? That's pretty much all she said because she didn't want to go into detail. But at this point I haven't seen him in 2 years, 2 fucking years. This sin't much time at all because I've gone 7-9 years without talking to him, but that doesn't take away the feeling of me wanting to have him in my life. He hasn't really been in it at all because he's a druggie. But me and my mom planned to go see him last Friday and on the website, they had said that if you sre 16 and up, if the person is your legal parent, then you can see them. I go up there and start signing in and I give her my school ID because that's all I have and she told me that I needed to be 17 and up. I was told that if he was able to put my mom on the visitation that we would be able to talk and stuff. I would be calling my dad as much as possible but that shit costs money and I am poor asf so those $20 would break the bank so I haven't been and also ngl I don't wanna spend my money on someone that hasn't done really done anything for me at any point in my life. I lost my shit, like I walked away from the counter and just kept walking, I walk super fast already, so when I get mad, I walk like 10x faster than normal. So my mom was behind me just yelling at me to stop and talk to her, I went fucking nonverble. When we got to the car I just sat there and she kept asking me questions about my dads cell number and bunk. Then when I didn't respond to anything, about five minutes later, she told me that we weren't going to leave the parking lost until I said something. I took a fucking nap for like I don't even know, 10-15 minutes, and then she told me that she was gonna take me to Haven again (mental hospital, been there 9 times) and I told her that I don't care and to take me. She told me no and started trying to get information about my dad to help me but, I'm not the type of person to care when I'm pissed as fuck and I just wouldn't stop yelling at her. Then I just broke out sobbing, full on sobbing about my dad. So after I calmed down a little bit she called my aunt and asked about him. We found out that he might be getting out this week maybe sometime later? I don't have a clue, they haven't updated the webiste. But I'll be getting updates on it if she finds out anything. Next thing that has happened was yesterday. I had a full blown melt down. I was being manic like normal and it went from normal manic to instant anger. So like my mom tripped over my purse and bitched at me about it and told me that it needed to stay out of the way. I told her that it's always in there and she needs to watch where the fuck she's going. She told me to go to my room, so I started grabbing my things and she started telling me to leave it there and go to my room. I kept calm and kept telling her that I was going to take my things, she kept telling me I didn't want to do that, I didn't care and brought my stuff with me. She told me to stay in my room for the rest of the day. I went back to my room with my things, I started to think about a lot of things and just started hallucinating. I was losing my shit and grabbed my satanic bible and tried to write some things down about it. But I couldn't I put it behind me and started crying like sobbing and the second I start sobbing, my mom came in. She started trying to ask me like what was wrong and I kept telling her to leave my room and that I didn't want to talk to her. I have DID so I did kinda switch and don't really remember and then it just didn't go very well. I kept yelling at my mom to get out of my room and that I didn't want to talk to her. Fuck I don't remmeber the rest but it's whatever