This won't reach many but you have to know

Don't chase love. Don't force it.

I found my childhood diary today and read a few pages. I was a 9 year old girl, talking about how it would be really surprising and amazing for a girl like me to be loved. I talked about feeling worthless and unable to be loved. I was 9, I shouldn't have had a problem like this. I was lovable.

Now I am 22 and I still feel like this sometimes, I can't help it no matter what. But it gets better, it always does. I just simply look around. As a society we put the form of romantic love at the very center and ignore the rest. Love exists in any shape of form, you don't need a significant other to be loved or to love. I have so much love to give inside of me and so do you too. If you can't bloom somewhere, you should get away, no matter what. You deserve to be somewhere your love will be appreciated and returned. 

Don't try to please those who are not interested in giving you what they receive, you will never feel like you are enough if you do. Don't be sad because you couldn't find a relationship or if your relationships have failed, you will have many more chances. Stop tiring yourself chasing romantic love when you don't even need it. As long as you want for something to happen, you will always settle for the worst. Because you just want to be in love, you just want to express your ability to love, you just think romance is the only way a person feels warmth. You will force a relationship, look over serious flaws, believe that in order to truly love someone, you have to accept them at their worst even if it hurts you and even if they don't care how it effects you no matter how hurt you are. You have so much love inside you that you will give it to the worst people and think it is real love. You will give love to those who make you cry and force yourself to believe that pain exists within it. It doesn't. Real love shouldn't hurt.

Look around you. You are already loved, even if you don't feel like it sometimes. It is hard but learn to appreciate so that you can receive more. You should learn to love a person, an animal, a book, a flower, a song, not to love "love" itself. 

As long as you limit your ability to love, you will be stuck in a cycle and know no other way to show your love than to be hurt and abused. You will mistake tears for hugs and kisses.