A day when you have no electricity due to power outage and you can't grind and feel useless

I'm feeling kinda gloomy today because I feel like it will take so long for me to advance in my own career. It feels like, it's just hard. I kinda feel sad that I chose the degree I was choosing back then, and now I had to switch career and learn a lot of things due to... Due to my useless degree. I'm learning a lot though, I knew it from the first time that in capitalism it would be hard for you as a non-applicable field students to advance your career. 

Hhh... I guess I'll back to grind again, to at least feel that I'm safe. Still have to deal with my body too though, I hate the disease I have and I am currently allergic to pretty much everything, my body was born with immunodeficiency and it acted weird a lot. Still have to get ANA and ANA profile test, also allergy test. But I guess it will be happen next week.