Gosh life is so exhausting

Having a hard time finding the energy to update regularly cuz way too much is happening. Having a mental health dip rn I think so that's annoying. Also got a new job at a Labcorp clinic. It's SOOOOOOOOOO tiring! It's a nice clinic tho, I do like it and the people I work with. I think this setting is better for me with where I'm at rn. Smaller team which means that they actually tell me what I'm doing wrong bc it largely affects everyone, which my previous team at inpatient did not do. It was so annoying to never be given instructions at the hospital they just expected me to know everything right away like bruh. I need very explicit instruction so this place is nice for me. Also very small clinic so it's a bit easier on my joints since I STILL haven't gotten a doctors appointment. I got a referral to a physiatrist and then they messaged me only 2 days before the appointment that they don't work with hypermobility and I should go somewhere else. Thanks for the fucking advanced notice geez. 

My best friend also has a lot more free time rn which is kinda a blessing and a curse. Changes in the schedule of ppl I love always fucks with my BPD symptoms pretty badly. The fact that I can hang with them more now gives me really good highs but it also makes me feel way worse when we're not together. Plus once their schedule gets less busy I already know that's gonna hurt a lot. I got the chance to go back to seeing my therapist regularly tho so that's awesome!