my mom is retiring really soon. which is good! I'm glad she's leaving her job because I know she doesn't like it anymore. but I wouldn't have chosen to go to community college for another year if I knew that she would be home the whole time. last year was great, I got to be at home alone and unmask completely, it was so refreshing. I want to move away, but I already have my class schedule lined up for the first semester next school year.
I just want to be left the fuck alone. I hate locking myself in my room every time my parents are home. I know they'd like it if I spent more time with them, and I have been trying to spend more time with them (i'll probably try more this summer since I love them lol) but I can't unmask around them. or anyone. doing literally anything makes me feel embarrassed and ashamed if I'm around other people. I don't know how I'm gonna stay sane for a whole semester.
honestly, maybe I'll sign up to be a shipt shopper? they've been contacting me saying a position in my area is open. I can choose my own hours so I could basically just be out of the house all the time if I wanted to be. the thought of that makes me anxious, though, unfortunately.
I don't have a therapy session this week OR next week but I desperately need one. this post is gonna help me remember what I wanna say lol
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