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dream season has persisted but it's much less scary now
every single time i wake up i have a set of imaginary circumstances in my head that led me to this place (my room)
obviously the leftovers of my dream state
its like dolphin half-consciousness
i wake up with a whole other backstory in mind, but it doesn't take long to refute it
i wandered aimlessly this morning (night) after waking up, and i swore i heard someone talking to me in an empty room
i think i even saw things
i only sobered up after i sat in the light for a while
when i checked my phone i was 5 hours behind timewise than when i checked it 5 mins eaerlier
i've always been very energized when i woke up, but that was when i was waking up in the morning.
i've taken on a nocturnal schedule that avoids the afternoon
when i don't have any looming responsibilities, that's the routine i fall into
the morning feels productive just because it's early
the night feels comforting just because it's solitary
but the afternoon is just uncomfortable
i could resolve this issue with an afternoon nap, i think some cultures do that
idk
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i very much agree with your opinion on the times of the day.
i've sadly never been able to nap in the afternoons, even though it's common custom where i live (so much so that some local businesses still close from around 14:00 to 15:30 for the owners to sleep).
so now that school is out afternoons just pass listlessly, thinking of the stuff i should do and obviously not doing it.
i agree that the morning feels a lot more productive, but it's always so short for me thanks to how late i go to sleep...
i never want to let go of the time i have for myself in the night so i stay up as much as i can, then curse myself in the morning when i have no time to work/read/study/etc...
i really enjoyed reading this post :] you wrote it very nicely, kinda lyrically even ! warranted a second read :p
hope you keep writing them
this seems to tie in with your post 'on practice', more goa lore lol
interesting, i guess that's just the student experience
summers are always a little wasted when you don't have anyone forcing you into kayak camp or hustler academy.
i'm glad someone shares this feeling, but my anti-noonism precedes my schooling.
the few hours after i got back that weren't quite night were never spent as enjoyably as i wish they were.
even while skipping so much, i only ever could enjoy nights and days. one notable part of it all is that.. you just cant entertain yourself in the afternoon. if you have distracting enough friends, are doing a distracting enough activity, or can easily convince yourself of the wrong time (that 5 hours into the future thing is one i can't stop seeing), then afternoons aren't AS miserable
maybe its something about the weather. summers here make strenuously hot afternoons, which is why i stay indoors
thank u. i think it's all prose, and not much worth being described as 'lyrical' but thanks still lol.
i dont know how i started writing like that in my blogs, but the tactless stringy breaks between small ideas in my blogs is kind of exactlyhow my brain forms thoughts when it isn't particularly engaged or in engaging conversation and i write to engage myself. i like your writing too!
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kayak camp! that sounds interesting.
unfortunately it's winter over here, so the outdoors is pretty much off-limits most days. which really hurts since an activity i do quite religiously is an hour-long walk around the neighbourhood in the late afternoon (adds to the romance)
i agree, even when i purposefully try to enjoy or at least distract myself doing something to pass the time and get to dinner (which kinda symbolises the end of the afternoon for me), the minutes go by equally slowly.
i think your writing style is very diaristic in your entries, which quite agrees with me. it is very similar to how i write in my own, handwritten diary, and it feels very natural to read. which makes sense, since it is a representation of your natural thought process.
i think the computer is also to blame, since one can write a lot quicker than by hand, so thoughts come out more unfiltered.
i'm happy you like my writing! though i guess you haven't got much to go off of lol. i should really write more on here. would probably be beneficial.
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