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i think about reconciliation with those from my K-12 past often, but never see the point in doing so. what is the point in reconnecting broken, rusted chains? reopening old wounds? The effort to messily fill in gaps of time with the present? i see those from my past and see that we are different as night and day, remembering that the proximity of our school lives was the only glue that kept us together. the glue now withered and dry, i wonder if there's meaning in trying to apply an extra coat above that tattered, dried-out glue.Β 


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totally 1000% understand. i think about my old friendships from high school constantly. its just crazy to me how close i was with them only to have basically no contact with them now because our lives are different and we’re no longer in school. definitely agree with the other comment though, it feels more worthwhile to invest in new/current friendships, because they’re people who care about me Now, not people who only cared about me in the past and stopped


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i'm glad im not alone in feeling this way!! when i look back it really sets in that it was just the experience of being in the same building that brought me together with a lot of these people, but we weren't necessarily compatible as friends as i might have thought back then. we were just going through the shared mess that was high school and basically bonded over that. i think now it would just be 10x as difficult to connect with them as we are now adults that don't have that shared experience of school to connect over so our vastly different personalities and interests are all we can really show for it, and that'd be a harsh wake up call for some people

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sometimes ill think about it, then hope those ppl will never have to see me again bc im embarrassing and have done bad things ..

imo considering the amount of effort itd require to rekindle friendships/relationships, i think its basically a better use of time & energy to just try to make new friends in the community or whatever. oh also a lot of those kids idk how id even get into contact with lol


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i feel the same way! at first i used to consider doing it just so the people from the past can see how much i've grown and changed but then i realized that they dont really care. alot of the people from my past r on facebook, but i dont even like using facebook that much. and like you said, there's effort in rekindling friendships that can possibly fizzle out again, so it's why i'm moreso focusing on the ones i have and will make in the future than making fruitless attempts on rekindling old friendship flames.

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