Fighting Art Block

I want to draw stuff so badly but because of my past with certain really shitty people I am very consumed by some kind of horrible purity police bullshit that makes me uncomfortable with my own interests. Its hideous. I am so mad those people interfered with my creative flow in that way.

I want to make fucked up shit. I am a blood and gore SFX artist by school training and a horror artist in 2D and I only got berated for making what I enjoy making for years by these people.

I find it so hard to get immersed anymore because of this. Fuck those people for screwing up my flow.

I want to paint again. I hate this.