Everyday struggles

 I'm so sick of trying to explain how it feels, how I feel? As if anyone really cares or can understand anyways. I lost my son in 2018, he was 6 weeks old, yes I have 3 beautiful daughters, it doesnt change the fact that a piece of my heart, myself is gone and I will never get it back. I'm incomplete, I can never be the same again, can never have that pure happiness, because with my happiness comes pain and guilt for being happy. I try, I push through everyday, and everyday somehow I manage to make it through, to see my baby girls grow, smile and live their happiest moments, all while I'm broken. Is it easy? Hell no. But I cant give up, I must try to be my best everyday,  because my babies deserve that and so much more. 💙💗💗💗💙