i cant stop YAPPING!!

does anyone else have like good video essays or like video essays on existentialism or interesting dark subjects!? im litterally in love with video essays i need them injected in my BLOODSTREAM!!!! stuff i like is like deep dives on stuff like randonautica and smile dog and old creepypastas and all that shit!!!or like just urbex shit tbh i really wanna explore and get outside with my camcord and film thingz but its dangerous 2 go alone and all my friends irl either SUCK or turned sucky or babysitting younger siblings UGH. anyways yuhhh comment suggestions to help a gal with boredom :P (what do i tag this as??????? im just gonna tag this as like... blogging)