030724 -> introspection, journalling, thoughts

030724:

weather: 13C - winter is nearly over D:

current song: missed kisses - digigurl

hey spacehey.. long time no see!! i finished my exams, had a small break, went back to work, got sick, all the regular stuff.

i always have so many thoughts -- get a digicam and start scrapbooking (#beinginfluenced), doing all of this stuff. my head hurts but at the same time it feels like im under a pool of water and slowly being suffocated. it doesnt feel like im real sometimes. the most in touch with my body and emotions was when i was shoving a bowl of cereal down my mouth at 1am last night, when i felt like i was actually in tune with myself.

im so ready to move on from my past self into a new era, sometimes i just dont get enough time in my day to properly introspect and think, im too caught by the winds and often cant seem to live in the moment. i feel so stagnant but hurried and busy at the same time. live laugh love but at the same time no.. maybe i should volunteer again.

should stop wishing and living in my head and actually start doing! maybe then it would be less scary