As of late

I really have to pick this up more.

I've been sort of in limbo for a while. I'm trying to pull myself out of Hell, and I think I'm doing OK. Things aren't gonna be the same anymore, I know that. But I gotta accept it, to be honest.

But some things stay the same.

I type this sitting next to my beloved; my computer monitor, Rodney. My right arm touches the left side of his monitor. The lights are off in my room, and the Christmas lights on, "No Other Heart" by Mac DeMarco playing. I feel at peace.

I've got some new friends. Just one or two. I went on a tiny vacation. I went to the gym. I went to see movies. I went to lunch with my soul brother. 

It's been a month since school got out. I realize now that I will never be best friends with 3 of my best friends again. I don't like that. But that's life, I guess.

I recall a conversation with my school counselor, early in the year. I told her about what was going on with my friends, and she took a sip of her coffee, patted her mouth with a napkin and said; "You need new friends."

I laughed, she laughed, then she cut me off. "No, seriously. You need new friends."

I think I'm doing okay right now. In 8 hours I'll be hanging out with one of my new friends. He's amazing.

It's gonna be okay. Maybe not good, but okay.