Ranting of this summer feeling

This is my first time making a blog, so hopefully this isn't that ass-

I've changed and lost friends, but I've found someone who will hopefully bring sticking around longer then the ones I've cut off. My music taste has actually changed, I still like some of it so it's mostly just add ones. 

This summer I've been wanting and scratching like a dog with fleas to be able to write again, I feel that I've become more dumber with out school -maybe because I don't have a schedule. I feel like I didn't keep the information I really needed, like this year I had actually focused and done my best even though I started off rough in the beginning. But I've finally felt like I learned the important things to get me through, and with this summer the school has taken our chrome books so we could get them for high-school -or whatever, I really don't know why they took them..

I've been wishing to be able to write again, but I don't have my chrome book that has digital notes on there that could help me write with correct grammar. I've been writing in a Informal way and I hate it.

I DONT EVEN THINK IM USING ANY OF THIS RIGHT.

And... I'm finally going into high-school. Which I've been in a struggle to have a good relationship with my teachers- like being able to talk to them and being scared of them. BUUUUTTT ha "butt" with this year I was able to get out of my shell and mature (taking responsibility of my work mostly) a bit. I've spoken with my teachers and actually liked having them as a teacher, which I enjoy because I even missed having them as my teachers and it makes me worry that I'll have to deal with teacher that scare me and are mean. I know that's what life gives and that I have to get through with it, but dealing with that for a year??? I feel that I would just fall into the hole I had dug myself in the beginning of middle school because of this depression that just won't scrape off.

Finally, because I don't have any help, I still don't know how to write a conclusion...

So, in conclusion I've been helping myself without a therapist anymore and it's costed my friends that I've had, but I've found other people. Summer had made me feel dumb and I haven't been able to write correctly ANNNDDDD i'm kinda worried for the teachers in high-school and if i'll ever be able to get the help I need.

I worry that no one really does care if I need help with learning.