life I guess

I am incredibly sleep deprived but I feel silly so just wanted to say that I don't actually hate anyone, like recently fell out w mates but I still wish them well and it's such a weird feeling. like they make comments about me but I don't want to see them upset?? like these people don't like me and actively say shit about me but I still want to double check to make sure they have friends and aren't alone? maybe this will change but I currently dislike them, not hate. It's so goofy anyway sorry for the rant >.<