i feel so weird (vent)

life is so complicated right now, i feel as if i should me happier but im not. its summer so why am i worrying about school and the people there. i feel as if all my friends secretly hate me and they just keep in contact because they know im depressed and dont have many friends. And theres this one girl i used to be friends with she backstabbed me completely changed as a person but i still miss her and want her back i know that old version of her is still in there somewhere and i just always pray to the lord that one day things will change and she'll somehow come back to me and i will get the closure that i need from here. my relationship with my body and face is all over the place as well and so is my relationship with everything and everyone. i just pray that one day ill feel a sense of stability and comfort with my life and the people in it. but for now i just have to keep holding on. im just 14 theres still so much life ahead me i just it ends up being better than the life im living right now.

if you read all of this, thank you <3

xoxo