Blog #1 ( thoughts on personality- relationship )

It'd be kinda cringe if anybody actually clicks this link, but hey, I might as well start blogging for fun. I dont actually like talking about myself, so a blog feels like a great way to talk to myself, plus the idea that everybody could see my thoughtd feels a bit fun to me, not that I think anybody would care about this

Im not going to worry about past stuff, this is going to bd a present into future kind of thing, so, here we go

You know, recently, I realized that Im unironically a full on personality kind of person. Recently, I broke up with my kind-of-partner, and when deleting their photos, it struck me that I wasnt as-afraid to lose the photos, even though they seemed gorgeous to me. Then it hit me, I asked myself the question, was I attracted to my partner physically, is that "my type"?

And yknow, I cant tell, because I genuinely think no matter how they look, theyd seem attractive to me. It made me realize that anybody could be a personality person, if they allow somebody to grow on them, most of the time, people just shut down people based on how they look, hence, they never truly give the person a chance to show their personality in the first place.

Now, Im not saying my partner was ugly, as I said, in my eyes, they were model level, Im not even joking, Id be obsessed with any photo they sent me, but I just cant put my finger on whether or not Im biased or not. In that relationship, my partner could make any change, and Id have still loved them. But hey, as I said, this is a present- future thing, and although Im afraid to let my partner and my feelings towards them go, our relationship status is in an irredemable state, and I dont think Im the right person for them, hence why I left in the first place. The funny thing about that is that I told them that they werent the right person for me, but really and truly, that works both ways around, it also means that I wasnt the right person for them.

I think about them alot, but Im going to try to not blog about that as much, because as I said earlier, Im trying to drop any remaining feelings.

I kinda feel like a loser for blogging on the internet🤓

but it's whatever

so, well!! This is blog #1