im so childish for this

so i doesn't come out from my room today, like from morning to this night.. its because I woke up to my mother's laughter in the morning, and when i heard closely, she talking ahout me with my dad because of how i dressed when i go out with my friends yesterday.. (you see, yesterday was the first time i go out with an emo look, and maybe the last time)

and i dont really affected by it until my dad start laughing and talk shit about me too, it was a little hurt yk, bc im not really close with my dad and i really want too.. so i started crying for so long until now. and i kinda heard that my mom mentioned her friends from highschool was completing my looks, and my mom was like mocking her friends for complimenting me.. now im starting to hate of how i look, i look really stupid with my hair like this, i try to fix it using the hairspray to style my hair but it was useless, i look more stupid using that stuff, istg. but yesterday i feel so much like myself, it makes me happy and all the photo i took, i smiled in it, not like usual

so i havent eat today, i just eat some bread with a chocolate syrup.. i dont wanna go out facing my family yet