why do I keep sabotaging myself

I know what happens when I glue on fake nails...I know I will hate it after 5 seconds.....and yet....

I keep ..... doing it....to myself....

Sure, it's only something I do like every 4 months (after I have forgotten just how inconvenient they are), but STILL.

I am the party responsible for my own destruction and I will perish at my own, impeccably black matte clawed, hand(s).

Trying to type this post a half dozen times bc I can't type on my phone bc FAKE NAILS ARE THE WORST

There is no greater hell. This is it. I am there.

At least it sounds really cool when I click clack my nails when I type but that is IT

the only perk.... tragedy. Calamity. Catastrophe.