Emotional

Emotional Edit:

im tired of trying my best im very sensitive never married no kids im the sweetest person ever im 1 in a trillion i just wanna be happy and for long as ive been single for nearly 15 years is a long time i wanna be able to start a family someday always wake up to the woman of my life i shouldn't have to worry about anything and I've been struggling most of my life need happy loving caring woman in my life and i might look happy in my pics but im really not everyday i get stronger physically and mentally another thing about me is i cant always remember things but that doesn't mean im stupid because im not and im also in therapy which helps some but not fully im tired of hurting being single i wanna get married one day and start a family i want the best ever i want all loyalty honestly loving caring trust i didnt think I'd add this but it needs to be said and its hard to actually trust and my trust issues are high and i wanna be with someone for the rest of my life i have pain in my eyes yes my eyes are blue :) but again no matter what i shouldn't be single and this really sucks i need someone prove to me what LOVE actually is i dont even know how to explain i dont know how its like being in a relationship not to mention its been sooo long and im trying my best in life to be stronger i should be able to look at you cuddle with you wake up everyday knowing we are in our place and not have to worry about shit like ignoring and speaking of ignoring i dont play that bull shit either pick up the phone calls texts video calls or just dont talk to me and i understand if you could be busy but if your gonna be busy at least tell me ahead before then ill never ignore your calls texts video calls i wanna be happy i want to be with someone who is SERIOUS LIKE ME!