life update ig

hello!! its been a long while since i blogged on here i just never really had anything to say until now, i'm 17 now and almost im gonna be a senior in September. yayy. this year i've been trying to get better but this month has been so tiring. i'm still rotting in my room all day just playing games and drawing, and i don't even wanna talk to my friends anymore because they're just a fucking reminder that im single and will always be some third wheel, but i don't wanna look like some dick so i just try to get over it. i wanna be happy for them i really do, but its just so tiring the only thing they talk about is their partners, or at least try to add them into the convo. its annoying, but anyways!!! im trying to find a summer job this year but i have summer school at the same time. and my dad keeps bothering me about it. the more annoying part about it is that everytime im trying to do my summer school work he complains about me not finding a job, oh but when i'm making a resume he gets all mad at me for not doing my summer school shit. MAKE UP YOUR MIND??? i can't do this all at once or i'm actually gonna break. this month is actually gonna be the death of me. i don't even wanna tell all this to any of my friends or my other family members, because i feel like im forced to not say anything about my feelings, plus i dont even trust them with any info especially if it's about me wanting to harm or kill myself cause i know theyre gonna take me to some mental hospital or waste money on some therapist.

anywayssss that's all!!! byeeeee