Funeral

Tx: death, vent

So only read this if you read the last post about my mom

So as you all know my mom died like 2 weeks ago or smt

But now tomorrow (on Friday) is the funeral... And its like midnight because I'm scared to go to sleep. I don't want to go there tomorrow and I don't really want to do anything anymore plus I recently also got my period again and it's annoying too.. 

It's not that I'm scared of the funeral because I'm sad about my mom (I am but that's not the problem), the problem is all the others who will be crying and trying to say how sorry they are for me like I want their pity

Again I'm kinda scared for tomorrow but I guess I'll have to go through it but I'll try to get out of there as quickly as possible and I hope not that many people will be crying (because if I see a loved one cry, I kinda wanna cry too) but I just really needed to get this off my chest.

Might update you guys once it's over! Or I'll just forget lol