school is making me loose it!!!

I'm about to break off for summer after my first year doing A levels (british thing u-u) and i just have a bajillion essays to do over summer?? its making my head spin i dont know what evil force possesed me to make me think i could handle three essay subjects. 

i also ended the year on poor grades so theres even more pressure to do well. it sucks because i had a really good track record over the year! straight As outta the wazoo. i was also planning to start development on my indie game but ill have to delay it for next year now sighh. at least ill get more time for research and development i suppose? its not getting scrapped though, its not an option. i love this project way too much

its kind of on me because i DID sign up to do an additional essay to do as part of my final grades, and i also volunteered to write a piece for my history teacher's book. i just wanna do as much as possible to ensure a cushy law career, even tho its not what i really want. i just want to make enough money so that people will leave me alone tbh (2nd generation immigrant grind!!!) 

in other news im v happy i made this account. its kind of dead here but at least i can yap without prying eyes and have a cute profile. also no one i know will be able to find me here and thats always a plus >.>;