my bf hates me

he hates me. he said he loved me, every fucking day. i gave him my heart. my love. i wanted to give him my body. i wanted to change my body so he would love me like he loved her. i wanted to cut my fucking face off. he still wants to be with me. i dont know why. only thing he said was 'sorry'. its not enough for me, like his words doesnt matter anymore. he ignores me. i dont know if i hate him more than myself. he liked her better. he always did. i dont want to be here anymore. i dont want to be anywhere anymore. i hate it.