To love what you toss away

If you need to scream until your voice cracks, scream,

If you need to throw away everything throw it away,

If you need to restart, restart,

And if you need to hurt, hurt until you heal,

But never suffer, feel the pain you’re meant to feel then pick yourself back up,

I tell those things to myself, and so does everyone else,

They give me great advice but I am still wrong as if I’m wrong for hurting but why should I hide emotions for nothing?

No one has wanted to get to the deepest parts of my heart or brain so why should I seek the validation 

I want to feel wanted but if I have to beg and cry then clearly I need to get up,

I want to want myself, to love myself cause no one has the love I crave,

No one loves the way  I love and if I give myself that love then I don't need the validation, 

I’ve always wanted to be understood, but no one puts in the effort so I’ll learn to understand myself, 

To look at myself in the mirror and say Be you, to embrace my true self whether it drives anyone mad, 

See my brain switches a lot so I could be back to being pathetic but I’ll re-read over and over again to bring myself back, 

I’ll learn to not let anyone touch my warm heart, to stay away, to let me love myself,

I’ll love myself, even if you don’t love me,

I’ll take care of what you can’t 

I’ll be the best version of myself,

I’ll prove to myself and everyone that I don't need your love I only need mine