The screams of a prayer for peace

I scream loud and violent for anyone to hear, the way my body aches and my heart bleeds,

My mouth is dry and clogged, my tears stopped running, my heart stopped,

I breathe heavily screaming the hurt away, 

I feel myself coming back, the emotions flooding,

The way the final thing exploded in me, the final act of this madness,

The way I’ll disappear, be detached, live for me,

The screams and cries that no one listened to,

When I broke down and I was forgotten quickly,

When my pain just made me feel guilty,

This is the moment where I break and realize no one cares,

The moment when I think and remember that I will never be anyone's number 1,

I won’t be good enough for you and I’m tired of trying,

The screams and the way my heart ripped apart will never be worth it,

I will silently walk away, waving a white flag to end the war,

I have grown tired of fighting just for the hope of affection, 

Keep your affection, keep the validation, 

The fight is done, I stand down from hurting myself any further, 

God knows I’ve tried but I’m done trying,

This world is evil and I’m tired of acting like I wanna live in it, 

I want peace and I’ll get it by any means, 

Please, God, let me live, let me stop pleading to you for change or death, 

Let the young girl I have peace in this cruel world,

Let me officially be done, 

Let me disappear.