ideek

so I dated this guy for like a month and during that month i asked like 1000 times if smth was wrong would he tell me and every time he said yes and a bunch of stuff like that. but like when we broke up i got really upset with him because he was talking ab how hed been thinking of breaking up for a week or two but literally 2 days before we broke up he kissed me for the first time so i was like ?? wtf??? whyd you do that then. it was after i gave him a present and i gave like alot of presents in our relationship so its not like he should have felt pressured into doing that to thank me?

but point is time skip to now where he blocked after we made up and became friends again (he did ignore me alot the entire friendship), and im looking for one of his friends discord and i actually find one!! and so i tell him everything that happened and hes like "omg wait i know you" AND STARTS TELLING ME HOW THIS GUY WOULD TELL HIS FRIEND HOW I ABUSED HIM AND STUFF

and he even sent me screenshots of their chat and some of the stuff is crazy??

    like for example i didnt let him do anything with anyone (i literally not only did BUT i even let him do stjuff with other people WHEN I WAS AT HIS HOUSE), that if we broke up id kms (idk where this one comes from i never said anything close to this?? maybe me going "idk what id do without you" but idk.), that i threaten suicide left and right (the only time ive ever talked ab suicide to him without asking to vent or without us both talking ab it has been when my thoughts were so bad i thought id just drop dead. so i sent him a paragraph ab how i loved him and his family and all that), and then the last one i know ab was that was that he said i always put him down and compare him to bad people (which was ME HAVING TRUST ISSUES (which ARE NOW WARRANTED??) and me going "are you sure you dont secretly hate me" and hed go "why would i do that to you? do you think im that kinda person?" and id go "no, i dont think anyone is that kind of person, but it still happens") so yeah. thats my third ex now thats told everyone stuff ab me behind my back and talked ab me being abusive without EVERRRR telling me anything. only the first person would give me hints every now and then AND I TOOK THEM TO HEART SO? and this boy knows ab all of that and literally once agreed with me that im not abusive when my 2nd ex was harassing me because of it. IDK WHAT TO DOOOO me and his friend talked like all night but idk. i sent him like 5 paragraphs on reddit ab it (it was the last thing i could text him on without actually being friended) so ill update if he sees it and/or says something !! which he probably wont cause LMFAO why would he. i just hope i can find his other friends to tell them the truth. if ur name is karla or spence and ur friends with someone named splash PLEASE ADD MEE