IM SO JEALOUS OF PEOPLE IN HAPPY AND STABLE RELATIONSHIPSSSSS!!!

Like ughhhhhhhhh feuiwbvrcwuo especially people who live around me like ughh!! Its so hard for me to find someone who actually likes me and sees me as a guy too because I don't pass AT ALL and its just so stupid like pleaseeee lemme love someone!!!! I wanna cuddle and get kisses and just enjoy being in a relationship without worrying 24/7 and being taken advantage of or manipulated helppppppppppppppppp!! Im ACTUALLY gonna start crying