a blog entry ....φ(・∀・*)

i'm not so sure what people put on blogs anyway (・・;)ゞ

mostly i'm here to just write things. i guess i'll introduce myself first.

my name is violet. im 14 and from the united states

often i find myself thinking about random things that I can't really tell someone without fear of judgement, so that's a thing i'm here to let free

you might have seen my previous bulletin post about this kind of thing. ill tell you why i decided to start one of my own

i think it might stem from this fear of being forgotten. i have this guilty pleasure where i really, really like to stay up late, turn on this tiny light, let my pet rat outside to play, and listen to this absolute gut wrenching true crime podcast. (//ω//) 

a lot of the victims of these crimes don't have much to tell about themselves, from their own perspective. i don't like to think about having to end up that way if something were to happen to me. the world is fucked.

i think i'd like to have something to say about myself. that if someone was going to tell my story they'd have something to know about how i really lived.

i dont know how long a blog post should be......

lately i've been really lost. after school ended, for these past few weeks i've avoided sleeping in my room, making myself pretty, doing skincare, and just binge eating.

i don't want to take pictures of myself on a day i look nice, but it's gotten so bad i fear that when i open a message app the camera will open and i'll see myself the way i've looked for the last month. i try my best not to look in the mirror anymore (｡•́︿•̀｡)

maybe with some encouragement from my loved ones i can make a change. that's a part of this too. i'll reach out to them

anyway, on the rest of this page it'll probably just be interesting stuff about going into highschool, i'll post my art (@covenkittie on instagram btw ^_^), probably random nerdball rants about things nobody cares to hear

i'll sign off for the night soon ~ with love, violet