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I'm known for being extremely consent and intimacy positive because of how I think good communication can go a really long way in relationships, plus I have a tendency to help with any qualms pertaining to more intimate subjects, which is why a lot of people would not expect this but I am quite terrified of intimacy myself. I won't be talking about anything really sexual nor relating to any trauma here as that seems a bit excessively personal, even for a post on my blog, so don't worry about triggers. I have been kind of afraid of anything past hugging since I was a child, unless it was my parents since I was plagued with these horrible intrusive thoughts that just never went away. Although now I am a lot better at dealing with them and they don't bother me as much, they have left a lasting impact on how I deal with intimacy in relationships. Not going into anything explicit, I had my first kiss with an intimate partner when I was 17 but I was very much freaked out about the possible germs on my couch from her jeans as well. I didn't like it as much but the point is that I have just been terrified of this aspect of relationships a lot just because it was something I mentally couldn't parse well. I do conceptually enjoy this aspect of relationships but I do think that the fear is just something that hovers over my head. The reason I came to discuss this here is that I wanted to just make it known that even someone like me, who takes on the position of an educator in a lot of my friend groups about intimacy and boundaries, have issues pertaining to it, so it isn't wrong to want to take these things slow and at your own pace. (06/23/2024) — Mars ᓚᘏᗢ |
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