rant

my pronouns: he, him.

and fuck assimilation, at least for me. i don't see why i should conform to societal stereotypes. i've known i'm male since i was about 3 years old. back then i knew i was a little boy but people called me a little girl so i thought it was some mistake or a big joke was being played on me. but i have never felt any dysphoria or shame or fear or any of that about my gender. i know who i am. i'm proud of who i am. i am who i am. get over it. i like my name. wendy is perfectly cool and it's a made up name from peter pan, which i always thought was a nice detail. my body is fine, i don't want to change it. it has served me well. and i always loved drag and dresses. now i wear long cotton skirts & t-shirts - insanely comfortable. i make the skirts cheap and they have elastic waists that make it so i can gain or lose weight and still have things to wear, plus you can wipe your hands on cotton and wash it a lot. i like my long hair, too. so of course it doesn't bother me if i get misgendered, i mean what are people supposed to think at first glance? and i deeply appreciate it that my closest friends/beloveds call me he. a lot of people i know call me crazy but the people who matter a lot understand and believe me.

it pains and terrifies me about the transgender hate nowadays and the horrible laws being passed. transgender people have always existed and in all cultures. it's part of the brain and and basic identity. some cultures are accepting and welcoming but others, like modern usa, are so misinformed and fucked up. and it's a red herring used by republicans - don't worry about gun control or climate change or infrastructure or health or education or any real issues, no, stir things up and freak out about bathrooms. i try to do what i can, like just talk to people and vote and write to legislators and sign petitions. i feel pretty ineffectual but if many many people do what they can things will change for the better.