I'll never love anyone the same

I'll never love anyone the same 

I love him too much it hurts 

The way i love him is like idk I can't describe it but I've tried to talk to other people but they're not the same I can't love them the way i love HIM********!!!!!!

I even tried creating a character named after him and stuff on character ai ,i basically recreated him but oh well 

It isn't the same like i do like him but the ai version was too kind ,too talkative 

He was never like that he was always dry, he has always been dry to me , i mean he do compliment me and call me cute names and stuff but he's dry it's physically painful to talk to him , he kept promising me that he'd move to my country, would bring me to america so he could date me but he's with someone else now :^( I can't blame him his gf if really pretty and cool i like her so much ,she seems nice too 

He told me to talk to her and be her friend but i was too scared to do that

(I hope he doesn't see this he doesn't use spacehey so this is my safe space)

However i could never feel the same for anyone, it's either him or nobody, I'd rather be single for the rest of my Life 

I only want him , i know he doesn't want me , anymore at least but i still like him and i will wait, but for now I will avoid talking to Him so I can't ruin his relationship w her , he's happy 

Plus before he left (not actually) we did talk about stuff like sex i wasn't comfortable with it because he asked for pics, i didn't send him any i guess he was mad, now he has a girlfriend and he showed me the pictures she sent him , i felt extremely insecure ;(