entry #5

its been a while.

my (ex) partner/boyfriend was (mentally) abusive as fuck and alot of stuff happened that i dont want to talk about but now we are broken up and im pretty happy :)

i lost most of my friends after he turned them against me but now ive got a new friend and hes amazing. i found my sexuality - im aroace.

im autistic and have a hard time knowing whether i love someone as a friend, or romanticly and  when i look back on it i hate being in a relationship and would rather be friends. anything sexual makes me uncomfortable now. 

i also got diagnosed with anemia :')

on a happier note, i am so so so so much more happy now! i have the best best friend i could ever ask for and i smile alot more XD!!

-ash

ps: TRAVIS STOP CHANING MY DISPLAY NAME ISTG