today

Today, I went out to a butchery. It was nice, the weather was nice.

when I got home, I was in the bath, I felt the bath salts reacting to the fresh slits on my thigh. It stung, and it hurt. apart from me though, I thought it felt nice. 

tomorrow, I'm going to a lake with my friends, I'm excited. 

Today, I was thinking, I miss him. not my ex, my old boy bestfriend. we were both happy when we actually got along. he was sweet, nice, and would comfort me, even if I was such a bitch to him.

My mom saw the self-harm on my thigh, and was so concerned. "you said you would stop!" was all I heard. I feel bad.

That's it, thanks for reading.

I dunno if I'll check in tomorrow. 

-ellie, 9:52 PM 6/21/24.