My boring mental problems

Hello, I think this is more of a vent than anything else, I know I said it's going to be about hallucinations and that, but I'll probably tell more things in the future, anyway, if all of this is written badly it's because I really don't care. 

Now, to the topic I wanted to get to, I have been hallucinating my whole life, I don't know if I have some kind of mental disorder, but I'm sure it's not due to lack of sleep, a few years ago I had a very good schedule, AND STILL I COULD KEEP SEEING THOSE THINGS-

Therefore, I came to the conclusion that I am going to continue seeing them until the day my miserable eyes close, and here we come to the point of the blog, I am going to post drawings of what they looked like (when I manage to post images). but in the meantime I'm just going to describe them and put the time in which it happened.

I suppose I've watched them since I was little, it's not like it's the typical thing where I'm hallucinating all the time, but everything got worse when certain things started happening to me, I prefer not to mention that now, but I want to talk about the worst thing that happened to me, it was When I was little, I was about 11 to 13 years old, it was horrible, I only wanted to sleep in the afternoon, but the only thing I got were thousands of multicolored plush rats running across my chest and choking me with their fur, while some went to between my legs and they accumulated in the shape of a ball, I felt everything, it's strange, I don't know if that's possible, but I remember waking up almost crying... I didn't sleep that whole week

I constantly lived in fear of starting to confuse what is real or not, when I was about 5 years old I fell asleep and woke up in my dream about 50 times, and I'm not joking, my little brain felt like an eternity, when I got up, my mother told me that I had only lain in my bed for a few minutes. Since that day, sometimes I am not able to see my own reflection because I feel that I look strange and that it is not me, and even in very VERY rarely times my face starts to look blurry

5-year old me seeing how she has woken up about 13 times and is still in the dream:

Hey, i'm bored but i can't write my blog right now, so here's a photo of my hand