small rant to nobody

Being used over and over again isnt a fun feeling.

i couldnt list the people or the amount of times i havent protected my peace against them, and that scares me. 

the worst part of it all is the fact that im very aware of it, but am too hung up for the 'maybe theyll change' or 'what if theyll treat me well later?'. 

the 'optimism' isnt even optimism at this point- its naivety. and, if anything im kidding myself because deep down i know itll never happen. 

if people treat you badly once, not only is there a fat chance that they wont change anytime soon, but theres always going to be someone they treat the way you wish you were treated. 

however, just because they wont doesnt mean someone else out there will be the same. 

charge it, protect your energy, and be patient.

dont settle for less.