𝓌𝐻𝐸𝒲!

𝓌𝐻𝐸𝒲!

Today was a tough one! I only had four-five hours of sleep last night. Was up till twelve after a family emergency hardly had the time to take my meds. I couldn’t even nap between bus runs because of class.

  If my hair looks unbrushed, it’s because it’s not brushed. But I showered last night so I had some of my natural curls in it. Don’t worry, I brushed my teeth and all, just didn’t want to style my hair too much. I stayed after class to finish my assignments, my nephew’s birthday is soon and I am stressing out. 

I think I’ll just give him five dollars and a card full of me pouring love that he won’t read lmao. The dogs are well, Gables is just as clingy as he always is. I’m so happy to have such good pups. It was chilly today and rained, got my clothes and hair wet while doing my runs, got me cold. The kids were off the walls today. But that's expected, it's cold now, Thanksgiving is around the corner, they feel a change, and change gets most of us excited, right? 

  I don't get home till late anymore, it's 5:28 pm for me right now. Thank god we're doing freezer meals now, so we just thawed some pasta bake I cooked a week ago, it can thaw between bus runs and the mess is so little I can sleep. 

  I used face paint for my eyeshadow today since I didn't want to mess with trying to get a good eyeshadow look, I kinda like how vivid the blue looks because of it. 

  My phone malfunctioned today, logged me out of Discord and when I logged back in, it said my account was blank with no contacts. I was scared at first, I thought I lost all my friends and Discord people. I don't know their usernames, I never thought to do so. 

  Luckily, I went on my laptop and it worked. Everyone was there, years of conversations could have been lost, friendships lost because I didn't know their username, how would I find them again? Most I only have on Discord. It kinda reminded me that life is so short, and I'm so short-sighted. I could never know the future, or be promised a thing in this life. A seven-year-old friendship could have been lost as simple as a glitch on a social media site. I fell into a sense of comfort, Discord would never lose my contacts, right? 

Someone told me today to focus more on my real-life friendships, that those were more sturdy. But you can't even grow comfortable in real-life friendships, the words are forgotten to time, and the contact of others is just as fickle. I lost a six-year friendship in the span of five minutes. People are people, wherever you are. 

Song on my head