sexuality crisis (╥︿╥)

gggg i want a partner but i feel no romantic or sexual attraction to anyone. I always have that little perios where i wonder if im platonically or romantically attracted to my friends but it always ends on the conclusion "im not realky attracted to them like a partner but i prolly wouldnt mind if we dated". i also want to date another trans person if i would be attracted to someone. but also the thought of me getting romantic with anyone grosses me out. ouguguh i hate this