weekly consume update 2 <3

Hiii again i honestly don't know who's looking at these I'm honestly just doing it so i can get stuff off chest and so i can feel better. These past few days have been alright except for today I've been talking to this guy and it was going great we would hang out and stuff and became good friends and did some other stuff lol but today i tried talking to him because he's been really dry with me and i thought i did something wrong or he's losing interest in me which sucks. I tried asking what's wrong and if i did something wrong but he was like no your overreacting and that shit hurt cause I'm off my meds and i suffer with paranoia and he just doesn't care he only sees me as an object and I'm like damn cause once again i got wayy to attached but its like i cant help it your giving me mixed signals and I'm a person I'm gonna have feelings i don't understand how people don't feel bad or feel anything. The last thing i said was yeah were doing stuff but were friends shouldn't we communicate and i got left on seen LIKE UGH man up bro and tell me what your feeling about me so i can like stop feeling this way and like move on ya get me but its whatever I'm talking to someone else trying to test the waters I'm just so over it. But overall I am just chilling waiting for august to come so I can go back to work. okie that's it byeeee. (if I have spelling mistakes dont mind it im slow as fart)