june 19

day three and they say three days forms a new habit so i hope i keep this up :)

officially got my period WOOHOO... this explains all the overeating im doing lately too...

trying to get better... and by better i mean i think i just have an issue with being attached to my friends. or actually. i need to give myself more credit. i don't think there's anything wrong with me or the way i care about my friends cus its not like im OVERLY attached and i think its normal to be sad or upset about a friendship ending or someone ghosting our friendship. i think i just am feeling it more right now because of my period + everything thats happened + how much i confide in the people i get close to ... not to be like ughhh my heart is so big :(((( but i do wish i just didn't care as deeply as i do about people i meet... i know not every friendship or relationship in your life is meant to last forever and i don't expect them to but i never expect them to end either so when they do it just affects me so much... i feel like such a sensitive fool and again i know my periods making it worse. im sure im thinking about it a lot because my pride is hurt a little too and its very fresh/recent but it just upsets me

also now it makes me hesitant when i form new friendships :(

also im realizing it probably hurts me so much rn because i have no fucking friends kgfjdhfg

ermmm aside from thatttt. nothing going on in my life

work is okay nothing amazing nothing terrible still just training

i hope i make friends