About a guy

Hi everyone so i know this one guy, i liked him ,idk i wish i didn't like him i wish i didn't reply to his message 

Our friendship started on discord, i joined his server and he DMed me first, we both like Metal and he told me he was into asian girls 

I showed him my picture anf he showed me his, he complimented me and flirted with me 

I fell in love and it was obvious, i think he knows that i like him and i think he likes me too i mean he LIKED me

But he lives in America and i live in a small country in Asia

He keeps telling me things like "i want you" "i only want you i don't want anybody else" "I've fallen for you" "you're such a cutie" etc...

And now he has a girlfriend, and the problem is i look like garbage compared to her, she's really pretty 

Ik I'm nothing I'm just a stranger on the internet who knows literally nothing about him but i really like him and j don't think i can love anyone the same way :[

Ever since i met him I can't feel anything for anyone, it's either him or nobody and

I even had to lock my phone, delete our chats and stuff so i wouldn't do anything stupid and ruin his relationship because he's really happy now :(

I do want him back but I know I can't do anything and I can't be jealous either because I'm just a friend, which is why i stopped talking to him 

I wish he could see this but i also want him to tell me to fuck off so i could forget about him T_T