Report Blog Entry
Hello spacehey I know no one is going to see this but I’d still like to at least put it out there so hopefully I am less self destructive.
I’m really starting to get sick of trying to make friends and join community’s. I try so hard to fit in and it’s just not enough I can’t take the disappointment anymore. It’s always the same thing that happens.
Join a club/afterschool activity/friend group -> I try very hard to make everyone feel comfortable and like me-> they say I’m the best person they have ever meet and that they never will leave me-> they distance themselves and stop talking to me-> I’m lonely again
At this point I think I might just end up alone by myself for the rest of my life. If I’m alone at 30 I’m defiantly ending it all.
-Asland
Comments
Displaying 2 of 2 comments ( View all | Add Comment )
K41
you wan be friend?
casey
Nothing i can say will really help you honestly, but i understand where youre coming from and how youre feeling right now. I know its really difficult but youre pushing through it and thats all anyone can ask you to do. Youre doing great enough already, it doesn’t have to be a gray cloud looming over, you can find the sunshine. Loneliness is hard to conquer and you might never conquer it, but someday you wont be as lonely and sometimes that has to be enough. I know none of that will help you, or what you want to hear, cause its not fun being told “its gonna be ok” everytime you speak out, but maybe the knowledge of other people feeling the same as you will comfort the thoughts of being “abnormal” or an “outsider”. We could be friends, im always free to talk