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I'm not powerful enough to create change, but I'm also not oblivious enough to ignore the changes that need to be made. I wish at the very least I was oblivious so I can live life happily, so I can focus on myself and my own happiness, but it's impossible to do that when there are so many people suffering. I know being conscious is required for change, but I don't think I'm going to be able to make a change. I'm going to spend my whole life trying to make a change and die miserably after living a miserable life bc my morals won't allow anything else. I wish I could be a performer, a party planner, a librarian, a foreign relations person, a botanist, a film maker, a photographer, a fashion designer....I wish the world could get better so I don't have to spend the rest of my life trying to make it better. I wish jobs like soldier and police officer were actually noble jobs that helped people and not forces to oppress people. Ughhhh