06/17/24 - another appointment…ugh

This month has been full of back to back doctors’ appointments. It’s usually really nerve wracking to go. I didn’t regularly go to the doctor as a kid so it’s all new and stressful. I have another appointment today.

At the beginning of the month I was put on Lexapro. I think it’s doing its job because i’m not feeling so scared or anxious. Or maybe i’ve just worked my appointment muscle enough times to be prepared. Either way i’m not dreading my appointment, but i’m also not excited. 

I have to go by myself which is a huge bummer. I typically have social support when I go out, but I wasn’t able to get it organized for today. I’m always feeling like I need adult guidance and supervision, but I am the adult and today I really have to act like it. 

I’ll probably spend most of my day sitting around waiting for my appointment. I always try to make the most of my time beforehand but I cant really get into anything, lest i lose track of time or have a difficult transition between activities. 

I’ll probably post another update afterwards or once i get my results, idk. Trying my best to be brave today!!