update on my health (TW)

i dont really know why im writing this but i might as well

my most recent admission is still a trauma on my mind and it affects me daily tbh

i was asleep and i started seizing and it took my dad over 30-50 mins to notice and then after that he was too afraid to tell anyone that i was still seizing so he would come back every now and then putting ice on my forehead and slapping me. so after it reached the two hour mark he finally called 911

im semi consious durring these episodes so i could sometimes hear and it is the most pathetic feeling you can ever feel. when your family screams for you to breathe and wake up but you have no control over it.

i was then diagnosed with FND but my cousin who has been misdiagnosed with the same thing thinks they are misdiagnosing me too and ive had multiple flatlines and my lips and face has turned blue and i dont think that happens with FND idk like i had to get life lined in a helicopter last year.