!Long Rant Incoming!

im going to move up to highschool this fall and im not really that excited. for some reason a bunch of people have beef with me for no reason at the highschool. i think its because i was in a relationship that i thought was a joke. (i know💀) long story short i didn't like how they treated me, we kissed but it didnt mean anything because i was confused, i broke it off, and then they told people about me playing with their feelings. i don't know what they said exactly but i know they don't like me now. i do admit that it was my fault for not using critical fucking thinking skills but apperantly this person has a history of touching people at [highschool] without consent and saying a lot of questionable stuff.

something more recent and kind of in my control is how fucking bad my scalp is bothering me. its been like 5 months since i started having this probelm. it feels itchy, tender, and osre when i touch certain spots. i dont even remember how a normal scalp should feel. i went to one derma and she gave me this thing that barely helped and maybe even made it worse because it caused me to break out (mometasone furoate topical). i then went to another derma and he gave me this foam (clindamycin phosphate) that i think made it worse too because now its more whole scalp. at this point i woudln't even care if i had to go bald to fix it. god save me from this.

my transtape gave me really bad abrasions and it hurts to wear a shirt and i hate my fucking tits. all the kids at school are on my last nerve. im starting to break out again. so many little things pile up on my back and make me react bigger towards them. i hoenstly wanna die if it means i dont have to feel like this anymore. hell i don't even know if anyone is going to see this.