Somewhat a vent? idkk

Is it just me or life now is just so boring and exhausting, I've been doing the same exact thing now for around the past 5 years and not a single brand new special thing has happened.

I'm tired most of the time and mentally exhausted from how pressured I am from my parents, well parent as my parents r divorced.

I've been trying to make music to distract myself from this boredom but nothing seems to be able to cheer me up, I really dislike having to fake my happiness around people so they wont start to bother me and ask me if i'm not feeling ok, especially my mom who already thinks I act "depressed" and "weird" because I don't social much with other people.

I try socializing but I just get too exhausted from it, I get overwhelmed over the most smallest things and paranoid about decisions that i haven't even made yet in life.

Idk if this was technically a vent, as i have never really vented before.