just a pace car on death

my brain hurts. my legs hurt from walking around. im so fucking tired and stressed but idk what to do because it never stops. life never fucking stops i just want to sleep for days at a time.

ive been working alot. which is a good thing because i used to have a problem about calling out and not going to work. so ive actually been showing up. but they keep putting me in the one place i hate being at and i get so much anxiety having to just go up and talk to people. and they know i hate it but i do a good job so they keep me there. bad part is that having to push my boundaries everyday is so tiring and i just want to crawl into my grave right now.

i dont know if its weed, nicotine, or what but something needs to change i genuinely have not been more miserable before. but then again i always say that when i feel bad. i feel like i only have one option here. not going to say it because ill get banned but you get me.

im just. tired of living. tired of talking to people. im tired of people perceiving me as this thing. this object. i feel like im the npc in my own game.

dont worry abt me tho.... ill stay alive through it all. ive been through worse